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[Seriously, what are they? Pokemons?]
I know things have to change as time goes by, nothing can remains the same, but even when my brain knows this, my heart refuses to understand and now is bleeding non stop with sorrow and plain pain.
For some this could sound stupid, meaningless and dumb, but to me it’s important, more important than I wanted to admit. I remember when Jin said he was leaving, and when Koki was fired from the company, I know I didn’t cry back then. True, I was sad, nothing was going be the same anymore, but even at those difficult times it never crossed my mind the thought of disbanding or anything like it. It was like a bad break up when someone dumped you. You cry and suffer but then you get up and keep living and moving. It hurts for a while but you learn to live with it, and without it, eventually.
But everything changed when Junno said he was leaving. For the first time in forever KT made me feel fear. Fear that they will not be able to come back from this, fear of losing something that it’s too dear to me, fear of letting them go.
Then I cried and felt at lost because I didn't know what was coming. The future was uncertain, which was something new with them, and I was truly at lost of what to do.
Then came the announcement of the recharging period and in all honesty, I don’t think I have ever cried so much over something like this in my life. It felt so final at the moment, and I could felt like someone was ripping my heart out and taking something from me. I felt empty.
It also hurt so much because I had been saving money just to go see them. I was confident they were going to celebrate their 10 years with an awesome concert in March and then with a fabulous summer tour. With all the saving I did I was ready to spent the summer in Japan, but then came the Junno thing and then the recharging period.
My heart broke then and has been broken since.
I always try to follow my dreams, even when sometimes my head decides to play with me and make me feel like nothing is worth it, but this… I had all my hopes and dreams put into this trip, the one where I could finally go to Japan and see the band that have been part of my life for almost the past 10 years of my life.
And everything came crashing down, leaving me empty handed.
I still have the intention to go to Japan this year, but somehow now Japan seems a little bit empty to me.
And now people are getting ready for their last concert in God know how long, and I’m not there and that breaks my heart.
I need to believe they are in fact going to have a recharge period and once that's over, they will come back to be the awesome group I love, the same dorks I adore, the ones I'm going to miss with all my heart.
I can’t help the tears. I can’t help to feel sad for not been there.
God knows I would love to tell them to take as long as they need to recharge, but with the promise that they will come back. I'm willing to wait as many months or years they need to recharge, just to make sure that when they decide to come back, I'll be ready to be one of those thousand voices yelling to them ‘okaeri’.
So for now I’m going to drown myself in memories and old concerts, and tomorrow I’ll think about the future and about that fabulous come back, with which they will surprise us all and make us cry again, but this time with tears of joy.


Credits to ozawa_chan@lj for the pic and for being awesome and sharing her pics with us
Current Mood: sadsad
Current Music: Chain DVD
14 January 2015 @ 04:29 pm

He's so cute!!!!!
I luuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuv him! 
24 December 2014 @ 08:19 pm

Merry Christmas everybody!
I hope you all have a nice evening with your family and love ones.
I wish you all love, light and peace.

Feliz Navidad!
Merry Christmas!
Current Location: Chile, Santiago
Current Mood: Thoughtful
Current Music: Akanishi Jin - New Life
15 July 2013 @ 09:27 pm
It's been a while since the last time I wrote something here and for some reason I thought today it was a good day to come here and show whoever read this that I'm still alive.
Anyway, to be honest with myself, I came here to talk about Cory Monteith.

I guess everybody already know about this sad sad news, and I won't give a huge speech about it.
I'll just say that my heart is broken like I never imagined it would be with a news like this.
I've cried a lot the last few days and I can't get him and his friends, family and girlfriend out of my head.
I find myself with burning eyes every few hours.
And if I start thinking about how much Lea is suffering... well, that's another crying fit right there.
For once I don't understand why it hurts so much. And I'm having a really hard time believing he's gone.

So all I can do is send love and light to everybody who's suffering with Cory's passing, especially to his family, friends and Lea, because I can't even imagine what it must feel like loosing someone like that, someone you love and that it was taken from you.

candle light
We're gonna miss you so much Cory
I'm going to miss you so damn much.

"Life's too short to be serious"
Cory Monteith

Current Mood: broken
05 May 2012 @ 01:08 pm
Happy birthday sweetheart!!!

"Often times,people say that only the closest of friends fight.
But, really , fighting is just a conflict between two individuals.
After all, humans cannot understand each others solely by telling the truth.
It's impossible to stay away from being hurt for a lift time.
But, try your best not to hurt those around you.
I really think that's how it should be"

"If my tears spilled spontaneously at that moment it’s because I immediately understood that what was happening, like in a dream, was the treat you had prepared for me, I felt your friendship much stronger than if you had thanked me a million times that what pleased and touched me"

‎"Hey Nana, why is it that making our dreams come true and being truly happy are often two separate things? I still haven't figured that one out"

‎"Hey Nana, I've always adored you Nana. I wanted to be like you. I still feel that way, so please, sing for me? One more time"

Love you!!!
I hope you had a great day, even if is a "work and no game" day <3<3<3<3<3

20 January 2012 @ 12:19 am
The FBI shut down Megaupload... as if that's gonna stop us from downloading things from the internet.
Sure, now that Megaupload is gone people are actually going to start buying all the things they can't download... NOT!!!
Current Mood: impressedimpressed
12 January 2012 @ 12:19 am
They won TWO People Choice Awards!!!!!!!!!!
How amazing is that???!!!!!!!

I'm so happy for my show!!!!!
they really deserve this!!!!!

Current Location: my bed
Current Mood: ecstaticecstatic
08 January 2012 @ 04:05 pm

☆*:.。. o(≧▽≦)o .。.:*☆

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Current Location: at home
04 January 2012 @ 09:41 pm
And two years later, she's finally back!!!
Her performance at MSSL was amazing... and yes, she made me cry. 
actually that's all she's been doing to me since she came back!

Look how pretty she looks!!!

anyway... she's back, and more beautiful and talented than ever!!!
her voice got even better... if that's possible. 

so, you guys, do yourself a favor and watch these two clips!
The PV of her new song Hajimari no Toki and a live performance of the song... both are breathtaking! 
And the song is so powerful and with a such a strong message...  especially after all she went through.

Current Mood: happyhappy
Current Music: Ayaka - Hajimari no Toki
31 December 2011 @ 01:46 pm

Let's hope 2012 be a year full of success and happiness!!!

"We will open the book. Its pages are blank. We are going to put words on them ourselves. The book is called Opportunity and its first chapter is New Year's Day" - Edith Lovejoy Pierce.